The intensity of this week was felt in full force this morning. I tested a 5RM bench yesterday and today was a 5RM back squat. For some reason, my mind blocked out the fact that I have been squatting once a week at best and thought I would be able to squat far more than I actually could.
I took some of my usual jumps and got to 365 which I only hit for a single.
I can make all kinds of excuses as to why I should have been able to do more. I didn’t sleep well at all last night, I am tired this morning, I have had some pain in my right knee/leg, I did not warm up like I normally do, I should have taken different jumps leading up to this. The bottom line is that I am rebuilding. I am not where I was and most likely will have to wrap my head around the fact that I won’t be able to squat what I used to. I know that I cannot expect to squat moderate to heavy when I have been skipping this lift for far too long. I was beating myself up pretty bad about this. It didn’t help to look down the aisle and see a guy half my size pulling around 200lbs more than me on deads, either.
I changed the split in my programming not too long ago to 60% body building and 40% powerlifting, so it makes sense that none of my numbers are where I think that they should be. Doesn’t make it easier to accept on mornings like today, but I will deal with it.
The positive is that it gives me something to start building on.