Some days you have it. Some days you don’t.
Lately, it feels more like I don’t. Sure, the weather feels like being stuck inside of an armpit and the humidity is terrible. And who really wants to train when it’s 90 degrees outside anyway?
Lately, those issues seem to only be part of the problem.
As I have changed my nutrition, I have seen a big drop in my blood pressure. Until I get in to see the cardiologist and after that, my PCP, I am still taking the same amount of medication that I was. What we feel like is happening now is the exercise and nutrition change has made a big difference and started to finally lower my BP. With the medication on top of that, I am frequently light-headed. This morning was one of the worst to date where every time I stood up, I had to hold on to the rig. Or even sit back down and collect myself. It is such a strange feeling. I remember this happened once before and my BP medication dose was lowered which made the difference. I am hopeful that is what this means will happen soon.
I don’t want to be light-headed.
I don’t want to take medication.
I just want to feel normal.
All morning long, I felt like I just stood there staring at the clock, with the world around me partially swirling around in a blur. Part of me was ready to go a little heavier with the squats. Another part of me felt like it might be unsafe to even try anything heavy, considering everything happening at the moment. There is no need for me to really push hard at all, so I ended up backing off, but I feel like I am continually having to do that more than I would like.
I just want all of this to feel more regulated so I can get back to doing what I enjoy without as many restrictions.